The Dysregulated Podcast
I live with anxiety, depression, ADHD, autism, OCD & BPD — and this podcast shares the hard-fought lessons I’ve learned along the way.
This is lived-experience mental health, told with complete honesty and zero filter, including the vulnerable and significant moments that continue to shape my life today.
Through personal reflections, therapy insights, interviews, nervous system regulation, and real-world struggles, I explore what it means to live with complex mental illness — grounded in psychological science and research.
Episodes
237 episodes
Highway Confessions: Facing Our Mortality
The highway is supposed to be quiet, but my mind never is. On a 9pm drive from Newcastle down the Hume Highway (M31) toward Wodonga, I record another Highway Confessions and let you sit in the passenger seat that is usually empty. What starts a...
Six Weeks Of Panic: Chasing Purpose While Battling An Anxious Firestorm
Six weeks into my new job and it’s been one long stretch of anxiety. I’m recording this on the Hume Highway, driving between Newcastle and Wodonga, finally explaining why I’ve gone quiet. I’ve thrown myself into learning truckin’ properly—Road ...
From Mental Health to Road Transport: My Return to the Freight Game
After years focused on mental health, I’ve made the call to return to the transport industry. To try and live out my dream, but with a new sense of purpose. In this episode, I unpack why; the pull of the highway, the reality of ste...
Highway Confessions: The Thoughts I Can’t Outrun
It’s 2:40am on the highway, driving home to Newcastle. No planning or preparation with this one — just the road and all my mind has been contending with. The same obsessions, the same questions. But tonight? It’s gone up a gear.I get int...
Translating Mental Health: Supporting Each Other When the System Falters
Some days are flat. The milestones drift. The questions feel heavier than they should. In this episode, I talk honestly about pressing pause on romance and pouring that energy into purpose — advocacy, community, and building work that actually ...
Crowds, Panic and Rising Above: Autism, Social Anxiety and the Newcastle Knights
Ever felt calmer in a roaring stadium than a quiet supermarket? In this episode, I unpack the strange maths of social anxiety and autism — and why a packed night at McDonald Jones Stadium can feel safer than a fluorescent aisle at Coles. I walk...
Panic On The Motorway: Driving Through Anxiety
Right, picture this. It’s 2:30am. I’ve been bounced off half of Sydney’s motorways on the way back from Albury-Wodonga, the NSW/VIC border, and I’m talking myself through a full-blown panic attack because, well, everyone else is asleep. Zzzz
When Love Meets BPD: Guilt, Growth & A Way Forward
Borderline Personality Disorder has a habit of sending me down to the beach, to ask the big questions about life. To try and think my way through its distortion of my reality. Just like the waves in front of me, this time the memories have come...
How Breathwork Changed The Game - Jay | The Energy Alchemist (Intake Interviews)
Jay is someone I have wanted to interview on the podcast for a long time. And if you listen to his story you'll understand why. What really sets Jay and his story apart, for me at least, is the steps that have been made to be able to engage wit...
All or Nothing Energy: BPD, ADHD With No Baseline
In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast I talk about living without a “baseline” and the swings between days of huge momentum and days where everything stalls. Living with ADHD and BPD means my capacity isn’t always stable, an...
Dysregulated Daily: My Mental Health Journal of Mood and Capacity
Dysregulated Daily is a daily check-in video series designed to capture what the big episodes often miss, the reality of mental health day to day in all its chaotic forms. Instead of focusing only on mood, I introduce capacity as ...
Choosing Purpose: Turning Bad Days Into A Blueprint For Hope
This episode is about a hard reframe: stepping back from the dream of marriage and family, not out of bitterness, but honesty. Instead, I am investing my energy where growth is actually possible (I hope).I talk about the grief that bring...
Fortnightly Check-In #53 - Recording Through Perfectionism Loops
A sunrise over Newcastle, a phone balanced in my car, and a decision to stop waiting for bloody perfection. In the next fortnightly check-in, I talk about the creative bottleneck that’s stalled a head full of episodes, how expectations kill mom...
Navigating Inspiration, Dysregulation and Mania (Bipolar, BPD, ADHD And Anxiety Cluster)
What if your best ideas arrive amongst a wave of dysregulation and mania? This episode dives into that blurry space where genuine inspiration mixes with bipolar highs, BPD intensity and ADHD momentum. The hard work of figurin...
Swallowing My Social Anxiety Disorder
What happens when social anxiety crashes the recording session? Finally, I return to the mic after a short break, battling a new swallowing issue (anxiety?), performance nerves, and that familiar inner critic. It’s an honest look at ...
Strike While the Dopamine’s HOT: Capitalising on Momentum
Good days don’t last forever which is why they need to be used wisely. In this episode, I talk about using the times when mood, energy and motivation finally line up to take full advantage by being action-orientated and not just sitting back re...
When Anxiety, Perfectionism, (And My Inner Critic) Gets In the Way
This episode looks at what happens when perfectionism gets in the way of creating anything at all. Over the past month, I've been stuck in the repetitive obsessive-cycle of record, doubt, delete, repeat. Each recording felt...off. And my inner ...
Teen Mental Health Matters: How to Support Young People Through Change (Black Dog Institute)
**To watch both the audio and video from this webinar please follow https://youtu.be/4Lb1NzFK5XY?si=N6-pJuM1wPwMjqB_ **Join Black Dog Institute’s clinical psychologist P...
Perfectionism, Imposter Syndrome, and Hitting Record Anyway
Finally I've published something. Not because this episode is one of my best (it isn't), but because I couldn’t stand being stuck in that record-delete loop any longer. After days of fighting perfectionism, imposter syndrome, and an overactive ...
Chasing Perfection: Why My Inner Critic Is Wrong
In this episode, I talk about the sudden re-emergence of my old foe, the inner critic, and how it’s teamed up with my perfectionism to drag me down. Together, they’ve convinced me that everything I do is sub-standard, fuelling insecurities and ...
Fortnightly Check-In #52 - Media Blitz
Follow my journey through the chaos of mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way.Lived experience is at the heart of this podcast — every episode told through my own lens, with raw honesty and zero filter.<...
Medication Emergency: Three Weeks Without ADHD Stimulants
One missed appointment, that's all it took. And suddenly I was facing weeks without my ADHD medications.This time I’d done everything right, so for once this isn't on me! I had scripts sorted, appointments booked, all lined up, ready to ...
My Therapy Reflections #12 - Bewildered and Bemused
After a break from therapy, today’s session was less about deep work and more about catching my therapist up on everything that’s been happening. Or, not been happening. She thought I'd be tapering off medications, instead of being on another o...
Fortnightly Check-In #51 - Intake Interviews, Q&A Sessions, Better Left Said
Follow my journey through the chaos of mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way.Lived experience is at the heart of this podcast — every episode told through my own lens, with raw honesty and zero filter.<...