The Dysregulated Podcast
Follow my journey through the chaos of mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way.
Lived experience is at the heart of this podcast — every episode told through my own lens, with raw honesty and zero filter.
This is a genuine and vulnerable account of how multiple psychological disorders have shaped my past and continue to influence my future.
Episodes
223 episodes
Swallowing My Social Anxiety & Breaking the Drought!
What happens when social anxiety crashes the recording session? Finally, I return to the mic after a short break, battling a new swallowing issue (anxiety?), performance nerves, and that familiar inner critic. It’s an honest look at ...
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Episode 226
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27:40
Strike While the Dopamine’s HOT: Capitalising on Momentum
Good days don’t last forever which is why they need to be used wisely. In this episode, I talk about using the times when mood, energy and motivation finally line up to take full advantage by being action-orientated and not just sitting back re...
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Episode 225
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37:09
When Perfection (And My Inner Critic) Gets In the Way
This episode looks at what happens when perfectionism gets in the way of creating anything at all. Over the past month, I've been stuck in the repetitive obsessive-cycle of record, doubt, delete, repeat. Each recording felt...off. And my inner ...
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Episode 224
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20:58
Teen Mental Health Matters: How to Support Young People Through Change (Black Dog Institute)
**To watch both the audio and video from this webinar please follow https://youtu.be/4Lb1NzFK5XY?si=N6-pJuM1wPwMjqB_ **Join Black Dog Institute’s clinical psychologist P...
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Episode 223
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1:36:04
Perfectionism, Imposter Syndrome, and Hitting Record Anyway
Finally I've published something. Not because this episode is one of my best (it isn't), but because I couldn’t stand being stuck in that record-delete loop any longer. After days of fighting perfectionism, imposter syndrome, and an overactive ...
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Episode 222
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13:37
Chasing Perfection: Why My Inner Critic Is Wrong
In this episode, I talk about the sudden re-emergence of my old foe, the inner critic, and how it’s teamed up with my perfectionism to drag me down. Together, they’ve convinced me that everything I do is sub-standard, fuelling insecurities and ...
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Episode 221
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18:56
Fortnightly Check-In #52 - Media Blitz
Follow my journey through the chaos of mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way.Lived experience is at the heart of this podcast — every episode told through my own lens, with raw honesty and zero filter.<...
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Episode 220
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22:56
Medication Emergency: When Access and Supply Suddenly Disappears
One missed appointment, that's all it took. And suddenly I was facing weeks without my ADHD medications.This time I’d done everything right, so for once this isn't on me! I had scripts sorted, appointments booked, all lined up, ready to ...
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Episode 219
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35:21
My Therapy Reflections #12 - Bewildered and Bemused
After a break from therapy, today’s session was less about deep work and more about catching my therapist up on everything that’s been happening. Or, not been happening. She thought I'd be tapering off medications, instead of being on another o...
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Episode 218
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20:20
Fortnightly Check-In #51 - Intake Interviews, Q&A Sessions, Better Left Said
Follow my journey through the chaos of mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way.Lived experience is at the heart of this podcast — every episode told through my own lens, with raw honesty and zero filter.<...
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Episode 217
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22:35
In Conversation With...#1 - Holly
Some of the most powerful insights about mental health don’t always come from structured interviews or carefully planned questions, often they show up in the middle of a casual chat. That’s what the “In Conversation With…” series is al...
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Episode 216
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1:39:27
The Q&A Sessions: An Introduction
Welcome to The Q&A Sessions: Your questions answered! If you have a topic you would like me to cover on the show, this is how to make it happen! Every week I'll select a question/topic to cover and give the best answers I can. Anyt...
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Episode 215
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12:17
When Self-Advocacy Faulters: Reflecting on My Psychiatic Journey
In this episode, I share what came of my latest psychiatry appointment and honestly, it left me feeling pretty frustrated. Again.I talk about what it’s like trying to navigate the mental health system while dealing with anxiety and...
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Episode 214
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29:28
Fortnightly Check-In #50 - Pushing Through Depressive Swings
Follow my journey through the chaos of mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way.Lived experience is at the heart of this podcast — every episode told through my own lens, with raw honesty and zero filter.<...
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Episode 213
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9:59
When ELLIOT Hits Back! Tackling Social Anxiety Head-On
Have you ever had to fight your own mind just to do something you love? In this follow-up episode to "When Social Anxiety Hits Back", I share my win of making it to the Newcastle Knights game—despite social anxiety trying it's hardest ...
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Episode 212
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18:40
When Social Anxiety Hits Back: Footy, Fear and Finding My Voice
What happens when the things we love most become casualties of our mental health? Today, I’m facing that question head-on as social anxiety keeps me from the final Newcastle Knights home game of the season.For me, the Knights aren’t just...
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Episode 211
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21:40
Fortnightly Check-In #49 - Complications Towards Recovery
What happens when the mental health system fails those that need it most? In this raw, unfiltered episode, I take you into the depths of my ongoing battle with a mental healthcare approach that seems more interested in medication guess-work tha...
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Episode 210
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54:52
My Psychiatry Review - Unexpected Outcomes
Finally the moment has arrived, my psychiatry review at James Fletcher hospital. The opportunity to state my case as to why I believe a medication taper and withdrawal is necessary and in my best interests. Also, to explain how a hospital admis...
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Episode 209
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18:39
Fortnightly Check-In #48 - The Date Is Set
After what’s felt like forever, I finally have a date locked in! I'm seeing a psychiatrist for an appointment to determine the next steps as far as my goal of tapering off all of my medications. Thank you, NSW public mental health system!
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Episode 208
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20:56
Hope on the Horizon?
In this episode, I share how the NSW mental health system has picked up my referrals and is starting to piece together a plan to help me move forward. It’s a big relief — and a hint of hope on the horizon — but of course it’s also tangled up wi...
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Episode 207
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28:07
My Therapy Reflections #11 - When Hope Runs Out (Almost)
** Content warning: This episode discusses suicide, suicidal ideation, and severe mental health crises. Please take care while listening. In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast, I unpack my latest therapy sessio...
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Episode 206
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45:13
My Therapy Reflections #10 - Fire and Fury
In this episode of My Therapy Reflections, I explore my latest psychology session, which admittedly wasn’t particularly productive. With my mind in overdrive from lack of sleep, stimulant dependency, and sheer frustration at life, I sp...
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Episode 205
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26:49
Fortnightly Check-In #47 - Perfectionism and Frustration
I've been working on a deeply personal episode about retroactive jealousy, but my inner critic has been relentless in sabotaging my attempts to record it. This is going to be my most revealing episode yet, explaining how retroactive jealousy ha...
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Episode 204
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26:25
Bringing The Noise: Becoming The Squeaky Wheel
In this episode, I share my ongoing battle to getting help from the mental health system in reducing my medication load. And progress continues to be hard to come by. I share the latest letters my GP has sent off to Bloomfield Hospi...
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Episode 203
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29:55