The Dysregulated Podcast
Follow my journey through the chaos of mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way.
Lived experience is at the heart of this podcast — every episode told through my own lens, with raw honesty and zero filter.
This is a genuine and vulnerable account of how multiple psychological disorders have shaped my past and continue to influence my future.
Episodes
227 episodes
Dysregulated Daily: My Mental Health Journal of Mood and Capacity
Dysregulated Daily is a daily check-in video series designed to capture what the big episodes often miss, the reality of mental health day to day in all its chaotic forms. Instead of focusing only on mood, I introduce capacity as ...
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Episode 230
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42:18
Choosing Purpose Over the Dream I Once Had
This episode is about a hard reframe: stepping back from the dream of marriage and family, not out of bitterness, but honesty. Instead, I am investing my energy where growth is actually possible (I hope).I talk about the grief that bring...
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Episode 229
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24:58
Fortnightly Check-In #53 - Recording Through The Bottleneck
A sunrise over Newcastle, a phone balanced in my car, and a decision to stop waiting for bloody perfection. In the next fortnightly check-in, I talk about the creative bottleneck that’s stalled a head full of episodes, how expectations kill mom...
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Episode 228
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11:23
Navigating the Blurry Line Between Inspiration, Dysregulation and Mania
What if your best ideas arrive amongst a wave of dysregulation and mania? This episode dives into that blurry space where genuine inspiration mixes with bipolar highs, BPD intensity and ADHD momentum. The hard work of figuring out...
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Episode 227
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54:55
Swallowing My Social Anxiety
What happens when social anxiety crashes the recording session? Finally, I return to the mic after a short break, battling a new swallowing issue (anxiety?), performance nerves, and that familiar inner critic. It’s an honest look at ...
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Episode 226
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27:40
Strike While the Dopamine’s HOT: Capitalising on Momentum
Good days don’t last forever which is why they need to be used wisely. In this episode, I talk about using the times when mood, energy and motivation finally line up to take full advantage by being action-orientated and not just sitting back re...
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Episode 225
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37:09
When Perfection (And My Inner Critic) Gets In the Way
This episode looks at what happens when perfectionism gets in the way of creating anything at all. Over the past month, I've been stuck in the repetitive obsessive-cycle of record, doubt, delete, repeat. Each recording felt...off. And my inner ...
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Episode 224
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20:58
Teen Mental Health Matters: How to Support Young People Through Change (Black Dog Institute)
**To watch both the audio and video from this webinar please follow https://youtu.be/4Lb1NzFK5XY?si=N6-pJuM1wPwMjqB_ **Join Black Dog Institute’s clinical psychologist P...
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Episode 223
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1:36:04
Perfectionism, Imposter Syndrome, and Hitting Record Anyway
Finally I've published something. Not because this episode is one of my best (it isn't), but because I couldn’t stand being stuck in that record-delete loop any longer. After days of fighting perfectionism, imposter syndrome, and an overactive ...
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Episode 222
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13:37
Chasing Perfection: Why My Inner Critic Is Wrong
In this episode, I talk about the sudden re-emergence of my old foe, the inner critic, and how it’s teamed up with my perfectionism to drag me down. Together, they’ve convinced me that everything I do is sub-standard, fuelling insecurities and ...
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Episode 221
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18:56
Fortnightly Check-In #52 - Media Blitz
Follow my journey through the chaos of mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way.Lived experience is at the heart of this podcast — every episode told through my own lens, with raw honesty and zero filter.<...
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Episode 220
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22:56
Medication Emergency: When Access and Supply Suddenly Disappears
One missed appointment, that's all it took. And suddenly I was facing weeks without my ADHD medications.This time I’d done everything right, so for once this isn't on me! I had scripts sorted, appointments booked, all lined up, ready to ...
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Episode 219
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35:21
My Therapy Reflections #12 - Bewildered and Bemused
After a break from therapy, today’s session was less about deep work and more about catching my therapist up on everything that’s been happening. Or, not been happening. She thought I'd be tapering off medications, instead of being on another o...
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Episode 218
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20:20
Fortnightly Check-In #51 - Intake Interviews, Q&A Sessions, Better Left Said
Follow my journey through the chaos of mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way.Lived experience is at the heart of this podcast — every episode told through my own lens, with raw honesty and zero filter.<...
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Episode 217
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22:35
In Conversation With...#1 - Holly
Some of the most powerful insights about mental health don’t always come from structured interviews or carefully planned questions, often they show up in the middle of a casual chat. That’s what the “In Conversation With…” series is al...
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Episode 216
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1:39:27
The Q&A Sessions: An Introduction
Welcome to The Q&A Sessions: Your questions answered! If you have a topic you would like me to cover on the show, this is how to make it happen! Every week I'll select a question/topic to cover and give the best answers I can. Anyt...
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Episode 215
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12:17
When Self-Advocacy Faulters: Reflecting on My Psychiatic Journey
In this episode, I share what came of my latest psychiatry appointment and honestly, it left me feeling pretty frustrated. Again.I talk about what it’s like trying to navigate the mental health system while dealing with anxiety and...
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Episode 214
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29:28
Fortnightly Check-In #50 - Pushing Through Depressive Swings
Follow my journey through the chaos of mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way.Lived experience is at the heart of this podcast — every episode told through my own lens, with raw honesty and zero filter.<...
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Episode 213
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9:59
When ELLIOT Hits Back! Tackling Social Anxiety Head-On
Have you ever had to fight your own mind just to do something you love? In this follow-up episode to "When Social Anxiety Hits Back", I share my win of making it to the Newcastle Knights game—despite social anxiety trying it's hardest ...
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Episode 212
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18:40
When Social Anxiety Hits Back: Footy, Fear and Finding My Voice
What happens when the things we love most become casualties of our mental health? Today, I’m facing that question head-on as social anxiety keeps me from the final Newcastle Knights home game of the season.For me, the Knights aren’t just...
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Episode 211
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21:40
Fortnightly Check-In #49 - Complications Towards Recovery
What happens when the mental health system fails those that need it most? In this raw, unfiltered episode, I take you into the depths of my ongoing battle with a mental healthcare approach that seems more interested in medication guess-work tha...
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Episode 210
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54:52
My Psychiatry Review - Unexpected Outcomes
Finally the moment has arrived, my psychiatry review at James Fletcher hospital. The opportunity to state my case as to why I believe a medication taper and withdrawal is necessary and in my best interests. Also, to explain how a hospital admis...
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Episode 209
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18:39
Fortnightly Check-In #48 - The Date Is Set
After what’s felt like forever, I finally have a date locked in! I'm seeing a psychiatrist for an appointment to determine the next steps as far as my goal of tapering off all of my medications. Thank you, NSW public mental health system!
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Episode 208
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20:56