G'day everybody, my name is Elliot Waters, and you're listening to the Dis Regulator podcast. As always, thank you for tuning in. Alright, so today's episode is as raw as it gets because I just need to get something uploaded. This is unbelievable. The same issues are still happening, which is I'm having great difficulties being able to record the unbelievable amounts of content that I've got going right now. So at the moment, just a bit of context, it's 5 a.m. And this is what's been happening. Because I'm so excited about the content that is coming your way on this show, the dysregulated podcast, I've been getting up early every single morning and I've been trying to record, and I just haven't been able to. I haven't been able to do it because I don't know, I guess my expectations for the recording is too high. The pressure that I'm putting on myself is too much. And as a result, nothing is being recorded, which is not ideal at all. So what I've done today, I'm just recording on my phone. I'm in the car, I've just seen a beautiful sunrise over Newcastle. It's absolutely glorious. And I feel like today's the day that finally something gets recorded because it's absolutely doing my head in. Um, because I put a lot of, as I said, there's a lot of expectations around this podcast and what I do on here. And I put a lot of, I guess I measure, you know, my metric for success in many ways in life is how many potty episodes I'm pumping out. So when I'm not pumping many out, you can imagine how frustrated and annoyed that I am. So that's why here today I'm just doing this recording in the car on the phone. I'm not even doing any intro music or anything like that. No flashy effects. This is just me talking because I gotta get something out of there. And by out of there, I mean out of my head where I live and spend so much of my time and get it out into this recording. So then hopefully that allows me to be more, I don't know, you know, like relaxed and free myself up a bit, so then I can come out with the amazing content that's coming your way because this is a story, right? So not only are there a billion episodes ready to go, or when I say ready to go, they're in my head, ready to go. And they sound amazing in my head. The problem is I can't quite figure out how to directly plug maybe this is a good thing, directly plug my head and what the noise is going on inside my brain, all that into a recording boom straight away. If I could, I reckon it'd be a lot easier. If I didn't have to actually get my words transformed from my mind to my mouth to being audible and then recordable, I reckon if I didn't have to do those last steps, things would be a lot easier. But unfortunately, somewhere in between my thoughts, my cognitions, and then my ability to actually verbalize what I'm thinking and then not be weighed down by expectations and negativity that then layers on top, that's the problem. It's the negativity, it's the expectations, it's the weight of all of that that just crushes any ability that I've had previously of being able to pump out episodes quickly. I talk a lot about how, you know, this overlay between mood chart and podcast episode output. And that's actually not really been the problem this time, you know. Like my mood's been pretty good. Things have been going okay, other than the actual recordings, you know, like things have been all right. I'm I've been working hard, you know, it's the end of the year. Christmas has just been and gone, um, which was good. Being able to catch up with family and all that sort of stuff, and that was really, really good. Very wholesome because I am an uncle again. So my sister had her baby boy Louis. Geez, it'd be just a week ago. It'd be it'd be seven, eight, nine days if that. Um, and he was tiny and little and cute. And um, it was great to meet him. So things are going good there. That's pretty cool. Um, I've been making some big gains as far as preparing to launch again my career my career. What am I laughing for? This is very serious. Um, so my plan is to get back into the transport industry so I can attempt to make some real efforts in transport as far as, well, as far as carrying lots of freight, you know, carrying Australia on my back in my truck, but also um being able to make some cultural changes within the industry as far as mental health is concerned. I've got a lot more to talk about when it comes to that. Um, I won't do that now, but that is coming. That is a big part of this podcast as well, moving forward, um, which is the amalgamation of my two fixations or two of my fixations, that being the road transport industry and logistics and also mental health. Um, yeah, some exciting developments as far as my role as a researcher and an advocate goes through the University of Newcastle. So there's been some discussions about the plan for 2026, which is very exciting, which is very much linked to this dream of mine to amalgamate my two fixations. So that's very exciting as well. Um, back to transport briefly. I've started doing my certificates again. So, first off, I've done now my load restraint course, and there's an episode I'm going to do all about that, and that might sound really boring for people that um that aren't interested in the transport industry who I cannot understand at all. But um it's going to be really interesting because my mental health disorders, my neurodivergence played a huge role when I was going to get my load restraint certificate again. And I think it's quite, in some ways, it's quite comical, but it's it's also a very clear, defined representation of how mental illness can affect just about everything. Um, and this load restraint course, let me tell you, my mental illnesses were firing big time, and as a result, things were a little bit complicated for me. But the good news is I got the certificate done, I passed the practical just by the skin of my teeth, um, and that's all done, so I can tick that box and hopefully never have to revisit that one again. Um, so there's some huge things coming with the podcast, let me tell you. Like, for example, um I'm gonna do some episodes on this because this is very um important, this is very significant. Uh, but the Disregulated Podcast is now on YouTube. That's the first little announcement to make. It's not a little announcement, it's a huge announcement. But the biggest announcement of all is that there's a new segment coming which involves me and it involves video, and it involves uh even more of a, I guess, um, intensive, raw, honest, genuine, and fed income look at what it's like living with multiple complex mental illnesses. This new segment, this daily segment, this daily check-in is going to revolutionize the dysregulated podcast. It's gonna revolutionize me and my life. And hopefully it might do, I don't know if it's gonna revolutionize, that's a very hard word to say, revolutionize your life, but it's certainly, I think, gonna offer insights into the world of mental illness that just have not been, I guess, broadcasted in this raw, genuine, open, and fair-income way. And I'm very, very excited because we know that I've made this commitment to you that this podcast is the most um revealing and insightful look at mental illness that there is. I've made that commitment to you many, many times, and I am committed to that. And this is the next, I guess, evolution in the podcast in my offering to you, and hopefully, it will go a long, long way into, well, at least for the people that listen to the show and that are in the orbit of this show. I'm really hoping that it's gonna offer some insights that is gonna continue to break down that stigma, be very enlightening for people, improve mental health literacy, and hopefully get some of those conversations started because I am about to reveal everything and I'm gonna reveal it every day. And there's gonna be no secrets here. As we know, I'm an open book and I'm so excited because, as I said, I think this is gonna be a huge, huge step forward and a real consolidation of that commitment that I make to you every episode that I do, even though the episodes have been difficult to get out lately. So, anyway, that'll do for me. Hopefully, this recording works. I'm using a new app on my new iPhone 17 Pro. Yes, don't worry, I haven't won the lottery or anything. This phone is costing me an absolute fortune. But the reason is because of the amazing video quality and this new segment that I was just talking about. So I'm very excited. I really hope this recording has worked because this one is sort of okay. And I'm it's gonna, this recording I think is gonna pass the test just. So if you're listening to this, things are gone well. I'm okay. Elliot's actually going pretty good. I'm just so incredibly frustrated that for some reason there's this bottleneck, um, this metaphorical bottleneck, I suppose. Um, and I just am not able to get the content out at the moment like I'd like to. But I'll tell you, once it all turns around, which it will soon, once I find the switch and everything is in full throttle mode, watch out because everything is about to go to the next level, and I'm so bloody excited to reveal it to you all as soon as I can get the words out. All right, I better end it now because I have a feeling I'm about to stumble over a sentence and then I'm gonna delete this whole recording, which I really, really don't want to do. Hopefully, this has worked. Let's see if I've got the technology uh down pat. I've got no idea, but we'll see. All right, thank you everybody for listening. As always, I do appreciate it. If you're enjoying the show, feel free to like, subscribe, give the show a great rating. And of course, you can now watch and listen, or not watch just yet, but you can definitely listen to the dysregulated podcast on YouTube. So if any of your mates have been wanting to listen to the show, but they don't use Spotify or Apple Podcasts, tell them YouTube is a go. Just search the Disregulated Podcast and you will find me and the show and all the amazing material, all 220, I don't know, it's like 226 episodes. They've all been uploaded, ready to go. All right, thank you everybody. Have a good one. I can't believe that this episode is finally done. Thank goodness. This sunrise, by the way, is beautiful. Newcastle is God's country. That's enough from me. I'll talk to you later. See ya.